man in the mirror

I think I may have little-man syndrome --a constant feeling that I'm destine for something more extraordinary than others, something more special, something that many Vietnamese American haven't achieved. Something other than medical doctor, engineer, nails stuffs, and....well, that's pretty much it. That's pretty much career choices I can have as an immigrant, and I'm very sicked of it. I want a break through and do something more profound, something more enjoyable. But looking at myself in the mirror, I don't see anything special about me, nor any talent that I have; I only see "a tiny asian nerd" as Jlo use to refer to me on her blog :/

I don't know. If any change I want to make, now is the good time because my dad just have been approved for some disability benefit. I don't think it worths much, but at least enough for him to live at the bare-nessity level. I used to count on my brother, thought that once he's done with school, he will move back home and help me taking care of my parents so I can continue my education. But I have learned that my destiny is within my own hands, never count on anyone because it will be a total disappointment.