pure love

Tonight thanksgiving is a total awkward moment. I felt more isolated more than ever. Maybe it was the same way as it was before; maybe I felt this way is because I care more, or maybe the distance between me and my relatives grow further as we haven't get together for several years. Either way, there are miles gap between me and my cousins, those were born and grow up here. It seems like we have nothing in common, nothing at all, from hobbies to interests...nothing. Only me and my brother share the conversation with each other. Then my nieces and nephew came up. Gods, I miss the old day when we use to live together, running and playing with each other. Now they all become teenagers with nowadays trend and style. My oldest niece is in college now. She may finish school before I do, oh crap! She is the most beautiful girl I ever met. I know I know; she's my niece; there's not suppose to be feelings between us bla bla lol. But feelings are just feelings, at that very moment, and I would be lying if I deny it. Anyway, it was a wonderful feelings; a feeling of happiness that so hard to describe. From the way she smile, the blinking of her eyes, her hair,...everything of her is so beautiful. It was a weird feeling, and I think it's love. Not a romantic love, but the kind of love that I would not hesitate to scarify myself to save her (if I see a bullet coming her way). It's a feeling that I rarely encounter. Then there was a random guy came up and calling my niece "babe". I wanted to sock him on the face so bad because I hate those guys who hitting on girls and calling babe. But of course, she is a growing up now and I can't do nothing much to protect her anymore. Only wish all the best will happen to her, amen!