the Plans

These are either-or's plans. I wish I can make up my mind :/
Plan A: Back to school for pharmacy
Pros:
- More stable life after 35
- More respectful
- Fit personality
- More likely to find a future wife
- More predictable

Cons:
- Study hardcore next 6 years
- Won't make positive income till 35
- less joy and more stress
- jack-in-the box
- quiet life
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Doable level: Hard

Plan B: Getting a full time job
Pros:
- Possible saving $10k/year
- possible small business investment
- Supporting current family
- less stress
- no rapid change

Cons:
- Hard to find job after 35
- less respectful
- possibly be bald and single
- no exciting future
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Doable level: Medium

Plan C: Moving to LA acting
Pros:
- More color of life
- More social life
- More on the road
- More ridiculously fun

Cons:
- Unpredictable
- possibly be broke
- no money, no honey
- unknown name until 35-65
- no experience
- risk of terror/earthquake
- always hunting for jobs

Doable level: Very hard

pure love

Tonight thanksgiving is a total awkward moment. I felt more isolated more than ever. Maybe it was the same way as it was before; maybe I felt this way is because I care more, or maybe the distance between me and my relatives grow further as we haven't get together for several years. Either way, there are miles gap between me and my cousins, those were born and grow up here. It seems like we have nothing in common, nothing at all, from hobbies to interests...nothing. Only me and my brother share the conversation with each other. Then my nieces and nephew came up. Gods, I miss the old day when we use to live together, running and playing with each other. Now they all become teenagers with nowadays trend and style. My oldest niece is in college now. She may finish school before I do, oh crap! She is the most beautiful girl I ever met. I know I know; she's my niece; there's not suppose to be feelings between us bla bla lol. But feelings are just feelings, at that very moment, and I would be lying if I deny it. Anyway, it was a wonderful feelings; a feeling of happiness that so hard to describe. From the way she smile, the blinking of her eyes, her hair,...everything of her is so beautiful. It was a weird feeling, and I think it's love. Not a romantic love, but the kind of love that I would not hesitate to scarify myself to save her (if I see a bullet coming her way). It's a feeling that I rarely encounter. Then there was a random guy came up and calling my niece "babe". I wanted to sock him on the face so bad because I hate those guys who hitting on girls and calling babe. But of course, she is a growing up now and I can't do nothing much to protect her anymore. Only wish all the best will happen to her, amen!

Minh-provising (vid)

Just a video of me improvising on the piano :)