A time for us (Piano cover)

I recently found a program called Pianoteq, which allow me to connect my piano to my laptop directly and producing a crystal clear recording sound WohOooo! what a fantastic program!!
Enjoy my new song :)

nothing to lose

It is a shame to admit that I don't have many close friends. The only close friend I have is my former coworker, who has totally different hobbies and point of views about life/society, but somehow we manage to get along very well. I also have two to three other friends that I hang out with sometimes, but they are females so I alway try to keep a distance so that there's no feelings involve between us because I like to have a line between friendships and romances ...Anyway, sometimes I wonder if is there any social issues with me. I tend to afraid to have a close intimate relationship, not only with friends, but also with family. I usually don't like to show affection to anyone, not because I am mean/evil/jerk/a$$hole or anything, but because I afraid of saying goodbye. Because of my plan for school/career, I will eventually move far away someday, I don't like to be sad or making others sad when I'm leaving...and the only way to prevent that is not to be intimately involved.
But my loneliness is killing me! I'm so desperated for love; my arms are hungry for a warm hug; my lips are thirsty for some passion kisses; my other thing is horny LOL jk :D ...Quynh seems to be a very nice girl; she's 4 years younger than me. I really want to "cua" her lol but knowing that I will eventually move, it makes me sad cuz I don't want to break her heart, or mine neither. Moving to where?? wtf am I kidding, idk where am I moving to either. Maybe I should drop the plan and accept what I have now live with it. Or maybe not having any intimate relationship at the moment is a good time to move away ....I'm clueless :(

P.S. A new piano song that I'm learning is coming soon: A time for us (slow version) :D

love is blue, or love is blind?

Love is a beautiful thang, I supposed, for those who is in love and being loved. But among those, only few of them are actually pure love and unconditionalled love. The rest are just pure...(idk, parasites love?)...or the kinda of love that exchanging for something in return, or using each other, or i don't know what the hell reasons are behind it...

I'm talking about my brother. Every-since he found his so called lover, he isn't the same as before. Well, lets start with the good things; he seems less grouchy than before, and seem to be happier than before. But that's it. The bad thing is, he seem more stupid than before :O Even though I don't have exact proof that his gf is using him, but I know she just want to find a decent nice guy to be with so she can stay in the US because she's an international student who desperate for a greencard to stay here. My parents, whose oppose that idea, turn out to be bad people in my brother's eyes. My aunt, who introduced him to his gf, turn out to be a god mother in his eyes. He would kiss her a$$ and do anything my aunt ask him to do, as if she is his beloved mother. I don't know when will he realize that he's being used by those women; maybe never because it's so smooth and he will not realize it at all. Like the old slang used to say "Thuong nhau cho goi cho vot, ghet nhau cho mat cho dung"
I hope my instinct is wrong :(