It is a shame to admit that I don't have many close friends. The only close friend I have is my former coworker, who has totally different hobbies and point of views about life/society, but somehow we manage to get along very well. I also have two to three other friends that I hang out with sometimes, but they are females so I alway try to keep a distance so that there's no feelings involve between us because I like to have a line between friendships and romances ...Anyway, sometimes I wonder if is there any social issues with me. I tend to afraid to have a close intimate relationship, not only with friends, but also with family. I usually don't like to show affection to anyone, not because I am mean/evil/jerk/a$$hole or anything, but because I afraid of saying goodbye. Because of my plan for school/career, I will eventually move far away someday, I don't like to be sad or making others sad when I'm leaving...and the only way to prevent that is not to be intimately involved.
But my loneliness is killing me! I'm so desperated for love; my arms are hungry for a warm hug; my lips are thirsty for some passion kisses; my other thing is horny LOL jk :D ...Quynh seems to be a very nice girl; she's 4 years younger than me. I really want to "cua" her lol but knowing that I will eventually move, it makes me sad cuz I don't want to break her heart, or mine neither. Moving to where?? wtf am I kidding, idk where am I moving to either. Maybe I should drop the plan and accept what I have now live with it. Or maybe not having any intimate relationship at the moment is a good time to move away ....I'm clueless :(
P.S. A new piano song that I'm learning is coming soon: A time for us (slow version) :D
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