Today, after selling a Plan B pill to a guy at work, I started to realize that he was buying it for a female friend of mine. For those who doesn't know what a Plan B pill is, it's an emergency contraceptive pill that minimize the chance of getting pregnant after having an unprotected sex. Thought it's very effective (98%), there're some risks of breast cancer and abnormal fertilization.... But anyway, this blog is not about the pill, but about moment that I realized my friend was sleeping with another guy. I felt breathless, like there was not enough oxygen rush through my lung. Each breath that I took was so empty. My mind went blank; I keep driving and driving on the freeway, careless of where am I going. Until my eyes caught the gas meter, and my stingy mind started wandering about gas's price, so I made a u turn and went home :P
Anyway, it makes me sad when I think about my friend sleeping with another guy, any guy for that matters. I'm not sure why I felt that way. Maybe because I like her. Maybe because I'm the jealousy kind of guy; feeling helpless when seeing someone I like is seeking comfort and pleasure from other guy. Maybe I'm not "cool" enough to be with her. Or maybe there's an invisible line that separate us, between friendship and romance, and I'm the one who tempting to cross that line. Or maybe, maybe, maybe, maybe...10000s of other maybes....maybe, we're just friend :/
