"Life of a biologist is all about eat, sleep, and reproduce"--my biology teacher used to say haha
I have been ditching that question since...forever...because I don't really know the answer. I think that's a bad habbit of mine, keep avoiding the problem instead of solving the problem :s .Yet, I need a goal for my future, a purpose of living and a target to aim myself to the right direction. Right now, it's hard for me to decide cuz it's not just my life to put into consideration; there is my parents as well. If I decide to have a normal life, living with my parents to pay off my debt--the debt that I owe them since the day I was born--then it will be very boring. Eventhough they never ask anything from me, I feel terrible because I haven't done anything to make them proud. Too much conflicts going on in my mind right now. I want to live a peaceful time, but at the same time, I don't want to be a nobody. I want to go to a big city where I can find more opportunities to strike. I want to have a more exciting and fullfill environment of living. But thinking about my dad's health make me weak :(. He's on the downhill of health, probably 2 to 3 more years to live. They are all I have right now; without them i'll be very lonely...
Idk, i'm just going sleep now. Maybe my biology teacher was right; life is all about eat + sleep + reproduce hahaha so I guess the only thing missing in my life is "reproduce" ^^
i like this blog of yours... i wrote something like this a while back.... still searching for my purpose in life. Before, i was very selfish and didnt think about my parents and their needs, i just wanted to strike big! After almost two years away from home, i wish i did differ....
ReplyDeleteWow, I'm shocked! I've never had a comment on my blog before, this is the first comment yay lol...thnx Kmee!
ReplyDeleteTime will never stop but keep rolling foward, so don't look back in time and regret; We learn from mistake we made from the past, but don't let it bring you down cuz it will do more harm than good; just think about a beautiful memory when you feel sad and it will lighten up your day :)