I kinda love these silence nights when I'm awake totally by myself in my room, without any sound, except the sound of silence and darkness. I'm not sure what it is, but it seem really peaceful. And sometimes it makes me wonder, about life/love/family...and anything else in between. Things that make perfectly no sense to me. Things that make me think people around me are crazy...
Lets start with my family, especially my dad. He's the most anti-social person I ever known. No, he's not mean. He just simply think that he's the smartest person on earth. Given any idea that someone has, he will try to find something better to out-smart that idea, even if his idea is bad, he will try to convince that his is better. Yet, it prevents him from getting along with other people cuz he thinks he's more special than others. Yet, he has to suffer from his own social disease. He doesn't have any friend around here. Even with relatives from my mom's side, who live only 30 minutes away, he doesn't like us to visit them cuz he thinks they are bad influences. I think he has a "little man syndrome" --a psychological disorder that makes make people think that they are bigger than the world :/
My mom, however, is a little different. She has a "cheap syndrome". She will keep any leftover foods in the freezer as her favorite phrase is "cover rồi để freezer" -_-, from toilet paper to napkin, electricity to water. She will turn off the water hole to droplets and leave it overnight so that there is water to use in the morning without getting charge cuz the water meter doesn't turn by droplets; She will tare a napkin in half, use it and then clean the table with it before throwing away... and most of all, she has been always longing to be old so she can collect senior social security money :(
The last person is my older brother--my only brother. I think he has a "Lonely-man syndrome" He's the kind of quiet and conservative kind of guy that would keep every thought to himself. He has been focusing very much on school; studying hard, going to the library, staying in a corner reading by himself; going home, study some more. He doesn't talk much to anyone; not a chic magnet; and have bad breath...suddenly, he met a girl at my aunt's birthday and bamm! He decided to fall in love. Quit applying to dentist school, he applied to nursing school so he can secretly move in with her. She is not in nursing, she is just an international student who need a greencard so she can stay in the US. She is not pretty, nor any special characteristic/personality standing out from others. She only have a cold sores virus that passed on to my brother after they live together, as no one in my family ever carry herpes complex virus D:
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.Anyhow, it's time for me to go back to sleep before I have a stroke at work tomorrow. I guess nobody is perfect since perfection is so objective. Yet, seeing too many issues in my family make me sad and don't know what to do. Perhaps I'm the one with issues; Perhaps I'm crazy one for seeing others' craziness. Maybe I am the one who have "cheap-lonely-littleman syndrome" :|
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