Phone anxiety

Fuck! fuck! fuck!
I have this very bad habit, but not knowing how to fix it or go around it. I'm talking about anxiety when making phone calls. When it is a business call, it's fine. But when I am about to dial a personal call, I ended up sending a text D: ... damn it! It happened so many times. Maybe this is a good opportunity to explore deeper in my memory and get rip off this anxiety once and for all.

Yup, it started when I was 19. OMG, it had been 8 years already!!! I first like this girl in college, but I was terribly shy. I couldn't even look in her face straight. I started texting her. In my defend, I wasn't speaking English very well at that time. I felt embarrassed by my accent; it sounded very ignorant. Especially, when texting, I have more time to think about what I want to express. In a sense, it delaying time so I have more time to think. Maybe because, I don't have a good social skills and afraid of uncomfortable silence. Wow, it does work!! I have never given much thoughts about it. Now that I'm thinking more about it, it start making sense now. It's all in my head. For any habit, there are reasons behind it, and we just have to dig deep enough and expose truth. It's like a rash; we have scratch it at the right location and apply anti-itching cream hahaha

Action steps: ( I can't change my past, nor promise for future outcomes. I can only change my perception and the way I think)
1) MY ACCENT IS SEXY. cuz many actors have to learn to do fake accent; i'm all natural hahaha
2) TALKING IS JUST TALKING SH!T. it doesn't need a topic for a good conversation. Conversation flow like water in the river. The less restriction, the smoother it flow so no holding back.
3) I have learned advance conversation skills that most people are not even aware of :)

Wohoo!